Post by The Imfamous AKA on Nov 2, 2011 1:50:38 GMT -5
I give you.... Well, the working title is simply...
Ink
My Father always said that art was our curse.
It wasn’t until the needles, miniscule and buzzing like bees beneath my gloved fingers, slipped into my best friend’s skin that I understood what he meant. Somewhere between the sharp point the met the back of her hand and where the permanent cuff faded a few inches up her arm, I began to feel the change. As though I had almost as much power as the ink I placed into her skin.
Libby and I grew up together, two peas in one strangely furnished pod. Both rebellious in our own ways—her by pushing against the limits set by her father and I by sticking to tradition no matter how hard my father tried to guide me otherwise—we learned quickly that two were better than one, a lesson that would usually take only children years longer to learn. Everyone assumed we would grow out of it. Soon enough, I would come to the same conclusion other young boys did—Girls have cooties!—or she would finally find some girl friends for sleepovers and boy-talk. Neither happened, nor did any other gloomy prediction about our friendship.
Libby lost three separate boyfriends in high school because everyone assumed we were fucking, and none of the girls I dated ever stuck around long enough to even make that assumption. It didn’t matter that her pretty little curves—as I heard one of her temporary boyfriends call her—scared off jealousy-prone girls, or that the fact that I was one her couch more often than her father was kept other teenage boys out of her house. Nothing in high school mattered but my art classes, her lit classes, and the fact that the covered front porch of her house made late-night visits easy once we were tall enough to reach the gutter.
The rumors were wrong, of course. Libby was a virgin until she went away to college. Apparently without my bulky frame to keep away intruders, her soft hair and hard eyes were free game. I was the first, and presumably only, to find out what happened in a dark room at a Halloween party while I was passing out candy to trick-or-treaters and still trying to convince my father to let me apprentice in his shop. She had stayed strong and quiet until I climbed through her window the Friday before Thanksgiving and tilted my head, not knowing what was wrong but knowing deep in my gut that something was. It was only then that she cried.
As strong as she was before, it was like her tiny frame was made of steel after that night. She came home for Christmas with a smirk and stories of frat boys and classmates who had tried their luck—much like the boys of high school—and failed miserably. She fawned over the sketch I had drawn her, the great gaping jaws of Loki reaching endlessly for the sun, and for the holiday drew from me a promise that I would one day etch it permanently into her skin. Once my father let me stop tracing and finally wrap my hand around the mechanical aspect of a tattoo.
She got her wish the next summer, just a few short weeks before she went back to school. I had inked the sun into countless pieces of fruit and a few pieces of pig skin. With my father hovering a few feet behind me, I shaved the fine hairs from the crest of her shoulder, gently pulled a pad of rubbing alcohol across her skin before placing the tracing paper, and began the delicate process of imbedding ink beneath her skin.
The sun practically glowed out at us forty minutes later, the size of Libby’s dainty clenched fist, with wavy fingers arching in all directions. It was hardly perfect, but Libby refused my father’s standing offer to clean it up when she returned in November. Instead, I did a bit more work on it—with a much steadier hand—and Libby got a free tattoo and what she referred to as bragging rights: when I was beyond famous, inking the stars, she would say that her skin bore the first strokes of my hand.
It was almost two years later that I was willing to try my hand at the wolf. It was just before her senior year at the university a few hours away and I had had my associates degree from the nearby community college under my belt for a year. I also had hours of practice—I had graduated from fruit and animal skins to the most daring (and cheap) of customers. As my father had, I picked up the craft quickly, inking flowing into skin as though it was the most natural thing in the world. The simply designs—roses and ribbons and stars and other traditional tattoo fodder—were nothing compared to the sketch I had drawn years before. But Libby trusted me, and wanted the wolf for luck. She was applying for graduate school, and wanted nothing more than her favorite figure from Norse mythology looking over her shoulder as she finished up her bachelor’s degree.
Again, it was far from perfect. The teeth were a bit too far apart, and the ears just slightly too large. Staring at it from between two mirrors, Libby just sighed and smiled. It’s perfect, her eyes seemed to say, softening back to the girl I had known and grown up with.
I didn’t see that look in her eyes again for a year and a half. Studying and seclusion had kept her sharp and stern, even as we sat laughing in her bedroom after midnight that winter. She smiled at graduation, a secret smile that I knew was just for me, in the crowd, even though her father, next to me, applauded louder than I did. Summer was a blur that year: my first real paying customers as the second artist at my father’s shop, her hours spent in the library as she began the preliminary steps toward a thesis. Too soon, she was off to school again, this time so much further away, a matter of states instead of counties. She didn’t home come for Thanksgiving that year; instead I was graced with a phone call and a smile in her voice. Christmas came and for the first time I was truly able to afford a good, real present. She smiled as she unwrapped the painting—a piece done in oil by an artist she said was her favorite after me—and pulled me into a hug far too fierce for her tiny frame.
We talked frequently, on the phone and through our computers, but we were not supposed to see each other until after her classes ended in May. I would have been ecstatic to see her in March had she not been there for my father’s funeral.
She couldn’t get a flight, not on a student’s budget, and had driven through the night. She arrived early the next morning, and would have woken me had I been able to sleep. Instead, I met the dawn and her wide eyes. By then, I had cried more tears than I thought possible, so mine were dry, and hers were not. I realized that it was the first time I had seen her cry since that Thanksgiving, years before, when she finally told me about losing her virginity. She cried longer this time, from when she arrive, or possibly earlier, until after the funeral six days later. But the softness in her eyes that I had missed so much, remained.
It was the evening after that she told me she wanted something new on her skin. I knew what she meant, having already talked to the man who my father had apprenticed under, hoping he would do the honors. We both wanted something, anything, to stand for him: I for the father who had given me everything and she for the man who had represented not only the freedom she had always longed for, but also who had meant so much to the most important person in her life.
We spent a few hours flipping through my father’s books. Sketches, flash, even photographs, and neither of us found anything. But buried at the bottom of the pile, having fallen behind the other books on the shelf, as a sketch book I had never seen before. Libby took it before I could comment, opening it carefully at random. The carefully drawn and shaded cuff was obviously my father’s work: I would recognize the careful curves and points anywhere even if it wasn’t for his initials in the bottom corner. And I knew, just from the look in Libby’s eyes, what I would be putting on her skin the next afternoon.
It was almost like that first time. I softly pulled the razor across her skin before the alcohol, giving myself a clean place to work. Only then did I align the transfer paper on her skin, the point of the cuff reaching halfway from her rest to her fingers. She liked the placement, and bade me to continue. It was the first stroke that was my undoing.
There was more power in ink than I had thought. I knew this irrevocably by the time I had completed the first sitting of the cuff. As the three and a half hours continued, as line work and shading and color went into her skin, she absorbed the power that I was reveling in. Neither of us knew what was happening, or what it would mean, but we both knew that it felt right. And when I wiped away the specks of blood for the last time, the foreign and etched gem at the center of the strange cuff staring up at us, neither of us would ever be the same.
Our art is our curse, and we would be best off if we kept it to ourselves. Pity that we just don’t seem to be able to…
Ink
My Father always said that art was our curse.
It wasn’t until the needles, miniscule and buzzing like bees beneath my gloved fingers, slipped into my best friend’s skin that I understood what he meant. Somewhere between the sharp point the met the back of her hand and where the permanent cuff faded a few inches up her arm, I began to feel the change. As though I had almost as much power as the ink I placed into her skin.
Libby and I grew up together, two peas in one strangely furnished pod. Both rebellious in our own ways—her by pushing against the limits set by her father and I by sticking to tradition no matter how hard my father tried to guide me otherwise—we learned quickly that two were better than one, a lesson that would usually take only children years longer to learn. Everyone assumed we would grow out of it. Soon enough, I would come to the same conclusion other young boys did—Girls have cooties!—or she would finally find some girl friends for sleepovers and boy-talk. Neither happened, nor did any other gloomy prediction about our friendship.
Libby lost three separate boyfriends in high school because everyone assumed we were fucking, and none of the girls I dated ever stuck around long enough to even make that assumption. It didn’t matter that her pretty little curves—as I heard one of her temporary boyfriends call her—scared off jealousy-prone girls, or that the fact that I was one her couch more often than her father was kept other teenage boys out of her house. Nothing in high school mattered but my art classes, her lit classes, and the fact that the covered front porch of her house made late-night visits easy once we were tall enough to reach the gutter.
The rumors were wrong, of course. Libby was a virgin until she went away to college. Apparently without my bulky frame to keep away intruders, her soft hair and hard eyes were free game. I was the first, and presumably only, to find out what happened in a dark room at a Halloween party while I was passing out candy to trick-or-treaters and still trying to convince my father to let me apprentice in his shop. She had stayed strong and quiet until I climbed through her window the Friday before Thanksgiving and tilted my head, not knowing what was wrong but knowing deep in my gut that something was. It was only then that she cried.
As strong as she was before, it was like her tiny frame was made of steel after that night. She came home for Christmas with a smirk and stories of frat boys and classmates who had tried their luck—much like the boys of high school—and failed miserably. She fawned over the sketch I had drawn her, the great gaping jaws of Loki reaching endlessly for the sun, and for the holiday drew from me a promise that I would one day etch it permanently into her skin. Once my father let me stop tracing and finally wrap my hand around the mechanical aspect of a tattoo.
She got her wish the next summer, just a few short weeks before she went back to school. I had inked the sun into countless pieces of fruit and a few pieces of pig skin. With my father hovering a few feet behind me, I shaved the fine hairs from the crest of her shoulder, gently pulled a pad of rubbing alcohol across her skin before placing the tracing paper, and began the delicate process of imbedding ink beneath her skin.
The sun practically glowed out at us forty minutes later, the size of Libby’s dainty clenched fist, with wavy fingers arching in all directions. It was hardly perfect, but Libby refused my father’s standing offer to clean it up when she returned in November. Instead, I did a bit more work on it—with a much steadier hand—and Libby got a free tattoo and what she referred to as bragging rights: when I was beyond famous, inking the stars, she would say that her skin bore the first strokes of my hand.
It was almost two years later that I was willing to try my hand at the wolf. It was just before her senior year at the university a few hours away and I had had my associates degree from the nearby community college under my belt for a year. I also had hours of practice—I had graduated from fruit and animal skins to the most daring (and cheap) of customers. As my father had, I picked up the craft quickly, inking flowing into skin as though it was the most natural thing in the world. The simply designs—roses and ribbons and stars and other traditional tattoo fodder—were nothing compared to the sketch I had drawn years before. But Libby trusted me, and wanted the wolf for luck. She was applying for graduate school, and wanted nothing more than her favorite figure from Norse mythology looking over her shoulder as she finished up her bachelor’s degree.
Again, it was far from perfect. The teeth were a bit too far apart, and the ears just slightly too large. Staring at it from between two mirrors, Libby just sighed and smiled. It’s perfect, her eyes seemed to say, softening back to the girl I had known and grown up with.
I didn’t see that look in her eyes again for a year and a half. Studying and seclusion had kept her sharp and stern, even as we sat laughing in her bedroom after midnight that winter. She smiled at graduation, a secret smile that I knew was just for me, in the crowd, even though her father, next to me, applauded louder than I did. Summer was a blur that year: my first real paying customers as the second artist at my father’s shop, her hours spent in the library as she began the preliminary steps toward a thesis. Too soon, she was off to school again, this time so much further away, a matter of states instead of counties. She didn’t home come for Thanksgiving that year; instead I was graced with a phone call and a smile in her voice. Christmas came and for the first time I was truly able to afford a good, real present. She smiled as she unwrapped the painting—a piece done in oil by an artist she said was her favorite after me—and pulled me into a hug far too fierce for her tiny frame.
We talked frequently, on the phone and through our computers, but we were not supposed to see each other until after her classes ended in May. I would have been ecstatic to see her in March had she not been there for my father’s funeral.
She couldn’t get a flight, not on a student’s budget, and had driven through the night. She arrived early the next morning, and would have woken me had I been able to sleep. Instead, I met the dawn and her wide eyes. By then, I had cried more tears than I thought possible, so mine were dry, and hers were not. I realized that it was the first time I had seen her cry since that Thanksgiving, years before, when she finally told me about losing her virginity. She cried longer this time, from when she arrive, or possibly earlier, until after the funeral six days later. But the softness in her eyes that I had missed so much, remained.
It was the evening after that she told me she wanted something new on her skin. I knew what she meant, having already talked to the man who my father had apprenticed under, hoping he would do the honors. We both wanted something, anything, to stand for him: I for the father who had given me everything and she for the man who had represented not only the freedom she had always longed for, but also who had meant so much to the most important person in her life.
We spent a few hours flipping through my father’s books. Sketches, flash, even photographs, and neither of us found anything. But buried at the bottom of the pile, having fallen behind the other books on the shelf, as a sketch book I had never seen before. Libby took it before I could comment, opening it carefully at random. The carefully drawn and shaded cuff was obviously my father’s work: I would recognize the careful curves and points anywhere even if it wasn’t for his initials in the bottom corner. And I knew, just from the look in Libby’s eyes, what I would be putting on her skin the next afternoon.
It was almost like that first time. I softly pulled the razor across her skin before the alcohol, giving myself a clean place to work. Only then did I align the transfer paper on her skin, the point of the cuff reaching halfway from her rest to her fingers. She liked the placement, and bade me to continue. It was the first stroke that was my undoing.
There was more power in ink than I had thought. I knew this irrevocably by the time I had completed the first sitting of the cuff. As the three and a half hours continued, as line work and shading and color went into her skin, she absorbed the power that I was reveling in. Neither of us knew what was happening, or what it would mean, but we both knew that it felt right. And when I wiped away the specks of blood for the last time, the foreign and etched gem at the center of the strange cuff staring up at us, neither of us would ever be the same.
Our art is our curse, and we would be best off if we kept it to ourselves. Pity that we just don’t seem to be able to…